I worry about thousands of things. I think i have anxiety issue. dunno..
People think I'm strong and stuff. truth is I'm not.
eh, I dont know.. I just sort of go with the flow..
what ever comes, just face it and suck it up.!
"Kau, campak kat mana pun mesti boleh survive." been hearing this countless time.
Seriously people, where did you get this idea?? really?
So, It's been a little over a week since i came to JB. i started work on wednesday and It's okay..
the first week was hard.. struggled with quite a number of issue and I deal with those stuff ALONE. really.
I might mengadu to a few people, and get a little help. but I did survive on my own.
I feel the loneliest last week.
I know, I dont have many friends, and I've been a bad friend to some other people. maybe i dont deserve the help I get..
But. There's this specific someone. I was counting on. I hope that person would at least ask me how I'm doing. Am I okay, or anything. Or just say hi.
BUt nahhhh...
I expect too much.
So i stopped hoping. It's okay...
no no no.. I'm not emo tonight. semalam lagi teruk emo.. hari ni just nak meluahkan je.
I'm good, I'm good.. dont worry..
I'm okay..
tu je la kot..
till then,
so loongg losers!
Tuesday, December 22, 2015
Thursday, October 1, 2015
Last day!
So, this is my final week in Ipoh!
I'm resigning, effective on friday.
I was offered a training program for Oil and gas industry.
It's a great opprotunity as, after the training I'll be intervied by companies bonded with the program.
If I do well, It can be a stepping stone in my engineering carrer path.
Thing is with my current job. The company I'm working now.
So I handed in my resignation letter on Monday. I was nervous for nothing.Boss said Okay, just like that. he asked why, and said Okay.
That's it.
Later that night. he come to see me. And asked again, "why?"
so this is basically the contentof our conversation that night. roughly, what i remember.
Boss: why u want to quit?
me: Because what ido now is not related to what i study in uni.
Boss: OK. U know what i study? IT and finance, but I manage factory now, is it related?
Matthew, he studied IT, but he never work in IT. He did marketing.
With his qualification, if he work 9 to 5, he can get stable income already. but why he join this company?
because he wants to develop.
me:...
**there are more stuff he said along the way. but i forgot.**
Boss: Think of what u can gain in the future.
You want to work in engineering industry? Work under people, what'll you gain? isnt it the same thing u gain in Uni?
Here, we need u. How can u solve the problem in our company. We need you, because I know u'd be good.
If u stay, I promise, I will train you into business.
Now, U do office work, Later I'll train U how to do PR. How to talk, entertain etc.
I'm serious, think about it.
***
aku dah fikir pasal benda ni, If I stay, Aku rasa diperlukan, boleh bagi pendapat.Meanwhile, Enginnering, aku akan buat apa yang orang suruh.
Can I even say my opinion outloud?
I'm interested in Business, but communication, Talking is not my forte.
Boss: It's okay. U're not good at that now, we can do it slowly.
**Wut?? Boss? did you just read my mind. so tell him,
Me: If I stay I want to work kore on Kilang side,
Boss: No, It's better for you to work in HQ. U'll know the whole thing.. Kilang only do what we tell them to do. how much they produce etc.
Kilang only do work, Here, We DECIDE.
***
Boss nak aku stay in HQ and do PR? U're crazy??
I'm a freakin introvert! speak in Malay pun berterabur. he wants me to promote his company?? crazy guy.* thinking dalam hati.
Boss: This is where u change your mind set.
You're young, U have a lot of space to develop. All u need to do is open up your mind.
**Did he just read my mind again?
Boss: Don't worry, I can train you..
***
So I signed the agreement for the training offer. If I breach the contract I would have to pay penalty. It's quite a big amount, at least for me.
The thing is, Boss said, he's willing to pay!!
Dayumm. Apalah yang boss suka sangat dekat aku. What did he sees in me??
Boss betul2 buat aku rasa bersalah malam tu. dilema sungguh. So I think about it the whole night.
and this is what i get.
reasons to leave:
1) I don't enjoy the job much.
Why? because it doesn't challenge me intelectually. my science skills/ knowledge.
2) I can challenge myself to do PR like boss want. but, it's just not me. at least for now.
3) I want to pursue my career in engineering.
4) I can't work in 1 place forever. Let me try engineering 1st. if it doesn't work, then i'll consider business as an option.
*I've seen the opportunities, if i stay.
Right now, the company is still developing. It's still in SME status. If I stay, i can be the Big Guy in the company.
Boss is willing to mentor me into business.
Even if I don't want to be the Big guy, I can use what i learned from boss and start my own business.
I know, Boss is going to be a great mentor.
But for now, I'll just try engineering first.
I still feel guilty tho, Boss and the others are so nice to me. sayang nak tinggal, but can't just play safe and stay..
So, the desicion is made. I'm leaving!
Sorry Boss!
Till then. see you!
I'm resigning, effective on friday.
I was offered a training program for Oil and gas industry.
It's a great opprotunity as, after the training I'll be intervied by companies bonded with the program.
If I do well, It can be a stepping stone in my engineering carrer path.
Thing is with my current job. The company I'm working now.
So I handed in my resignation letter on Monday. I was nervous for nothing.Boss said Okay, just like that. he asked why, and said Okay.
That's it.
Later that night. he come to see me. And asked again, "why?"
so this is basically the contentof our conversation that night. roughly, what i remember.
Boss: why u want to quit?
me: Because what ido now is not related to what i study in uni.
Boss: OK. U know what i study? IT and finance, but I manage factory now, is it related?
Matthew, he studied IT, but he never work in IT. He did marketing.
With his qualification, if he work 9 to 5, he can get stable income already. but why he join this company?
because he wants to develop.
me:...
**there are more stuff he said along the way. but i forgot.**
Boss: Think of what u can gain in the future.
You want to work in engineering industry? Work under people, what'll you gain? isnt it the same thing u gain in Uni?
Here, we need u. How can u solve the problem in our company. We need you, because I know u'd be good.
If u stay, I promise, I will train you into business.
Now, U do office work, Later I'll train U how to do PR. How to talk, entertain etc.
I'm serious, think about it.
***
aku dah fikir pasal benda ni, If I stay, Aku rasa diperlukan, boleh bagi pendapat.Meanwhile, Enginnering, aku akan buat apa yang orang suruh.
Can I even say my opinion outloud?
I'm interested in Business, but communication, Talking is not my forte.
Boss: It's okay. U're not good at that now, we can do it slowly.
**Wut?? Boss? did you just read my mind. so tell him,
Me: If I stay I want to work kore on Kilang side,
Boss: No, It's better for you to work in HQ. U'll know the whole thing.. Kilang only do what we tell them to do. how much they produce etc.
Kilang only do work, Here, We DECIDE.
***
Boss nak aku stay in HQ and do PR? U're crazy??
I'm a freakin introvert! speak in Malay pun berterabur. he wants me to promote his company?? crazy guy.* thinking dalam hati.
Boss: This is where u change your mind set.
You're young, U have a lot of space to develop. All u need to do is open up your mind.
**Did he just read my mind again?
Boss: Don't worry, I can train you..
***
So I signed the agreement for the training offer. If I breach the contract I would have to pay penalty. It's quite a big amount, at least for me.
The thing is, Boss said, he's willing to pay!!
Dayumm. Apalah yang boss suka sangat dekat aku. What did he sees in me??
Boss betul2 buat aku rasa bersalah malam tu. dilema sungguh. So I think about it the whole night.
and this is what i get.
reasons to leave:
1) I don't enjoy the job much.
Why? because it doesn't challenge me intelectually. my science skills/ knowledge.
2) I can challenge myself to do PR like boss want. but, it's just not me. at least for now.
3) I want to pursue my career in engineering.
4) I can't work in 1 place forever. Let me try engineering 1st. if it doesn't work, then i'll consider business as an option.
*I've seen the opportunities, if i stay.
Right now, the company is still developing. It's still in SME status. If I stay, i can be the Big Guy in the company.
Boss is willing to mentor me into business.
Even if I don't want to be the Big guy, I can use what i learned from boss and start my own business.
I know, Boss is going to be a great mentor.
But for now, I'll just try engineering first.
I still feel guilty tho, Boss and the others are so nice to me. sayang nak tinggal, but can't just play safe and stay..
So, the desicion is made. I'm leaving!
Sorry Boss!
Till then. see you!
Saturday, September 19, 2015
3rd Week
It's been 3 weeks here in Ipoh!
the haze had come and gone. been worse, then better, and worse again.
yet here I am, still surviving.
Three weeks into work, and i've gotten used to it.
At first I thought It was hard, It was a whole new world to me.
nahh.. Admin job is not easy. I was like a sponge, ready to absorb everything.
Thank goodness, now i'm OK with it..
The thing is, i work too fats, Or I think I work too fast.
I always finish my tasks wayyy earlier than the deadline.
Boss's secretary would give me stuff to do.
As example, the task is meant to be completed in two days, I can get it done in just a few hours.
too efficient. then, at the end of the day, i'll get bored. because there'e nothing to do.. LOL!
When i get bored, mula la nak mengulor. But as I'm stll in probation period, kena lah behave kan.
so I use my free time to enhance my Mandarin skill. :)
Mandarin is sooo harddd..
So far, my progress in mandarin has been slow. I can speak simple phrases, and introduce myself.. hehe
Actually, there's a call I get on friday. and I wanna talk about it. tapi tengok la nanti..
Till then, Good bye!
the haze had come and gone. been worse, then better, and worse again.
yet here I am, still surviving.
Three weeks into work, and i've gotten used to it.
At first I thought It was hard, It was a whole new world to me.
nahh.. Admin job is not easy. I was like a sponge, ready to absorb everything.
Thank goodness, now i'm OK with it..
The thing is, i work too fats, Or I think I work too fast.
I always finish my tasks wayyy earlier than the deadline.
Boss's secretary would give me stuff to do.
As example, the task is meant to be completed in two days, I can get it done in just a few hours.
too efficient. then, at the end of the day, i'll get bored. because there'e nothing to do.. LOL!
When i get bored, mula la nak mengulor. But as I'm stll in probation period, kena lah behave kan.
so I use my free time to enhance my Mandarin skill. :)
Mandarin is sooo harddd..
So far, my progress in mandarin has been slow. I can speak simple phrases, and introduce myself.. hehe
Actually, there's a call I get on friday. and I wanna talk about it. tapi tengok la nanti..
Till then, Good bye!
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